My name is Blanche, and I'm an alcoholic.

My inner voice got me into trouble, even though I knew it was usually telling the truth. The voice was always there, I just chose not to listen. God decided not to give up on me, even though I thought I was agnostic. I always had the TV turned on for noise mainly when I was at home. I couldn't sleep without it, or I would wake up, need to drink, and watch. Once, when there was some talk show on, they were discussing a woman's life. The host was saying, "You need to be making changes in your life." The woman replied, "I'm afraid." The host snapped back, "You should be more afraid of what will happen if you don't!" Well, I heard that ... it was about me. I had many "yets" to come, but they were closing in on me fast. The next few days as I lay in bed sick with "bottle flu," I watched a commercial for AA. To this day I've never seen it again, but I came to AA soon afterward. I came to AA, I came to, and I came to believe. It was a process. And still is a wonderful journey. Today I have found a loving God, and recognize that inner voice with respect. I have learned to be still and listen. All these things and more are natural to me now. I am still an alcoholic, and it is so very worth it. Today, I love sobriety, and I accept everything ... everything it took to get me here. I'm so glad I am here today. Thanks all!

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