I'm Pamela S, an alcoholic.

All I ever have to be is me, and the only place I ever have to be me is in the moment I am in. All results belong to God. My responsibilities are small and specific. A huge part of my program is minding my own business. Today, I am learning more (one minute at a time) of: Acceptance, Faith, Surrender, Trust, Honesty, Courage, Willingness, Humility, Forgiveness, Freedom, Perseverance, Patience, Charity, Love -- some of the beautiful principles of our program which have allowed me, for the first time, to develop character. So many things my mother tried to teach me and I somehow missed. Ears closed, feelings hurt, defensive walls up, denial working hard -- I was the little girl who never grew up. The most important action for this alcoholic today is communication with the God of my understanding. I pray before, I pray during, and I pray after my choices. The more I surrender to the God of my understanding -- the more right my choices become. I'm not there yet, of course, and yet I do continue to make progress. It's a beautiful journey, not a destination! I love recovery! Thank God for AA!