I'm Dushan, a grateful sober alcoholic in recovery.

At my AA meeting yesterday, the topic was 'Rigorous Honesty.' How I cringed when I first read those words in the Big Book Chapter, "How it Works." In my drinking days I had cash register honesty, but I was not honest in dealing with people or relationships, and never honest with my wife or my family. When I came into the program, honesty was a hard thing for me to grasp. But eventually I began getting honest with myself about my disease, and then I could be honest with other people. There is a reason why honesty is mentioned about eight times in the reading of "How it Works." In working the Steps, I've come to realize that I did not know how to live life on life's terms. Honesty was one of my biggest defects. I recognize that now. I work on my character defects every day now, and when one pops up I see it for what it is.

Thank you for letting me share.