I came to believe that I cannot do this alone.
From childhood, despite the love I experienced,
I had never let people, even those closest to me,
inside my life.
All my life I had lived the deepest of lies,
not sharing with anyone my true thoughts and feelings.
I thought I had a direct line to God,
and I built a wall of distrust around myself.
In AA I faced the pervasive "we" of the Twelve Steps
and gradually realized that I can separate
and protect my sobriety from outside hazards
only inasmuch as I rely on the sober experience
of other AA members and share their journey
through the steps to recovery.
I'm not alone anymore.
Y A N A = You Are Not Alone.