I'm Leon, an alcoholic.

Why do I need to be reminded of acceptance so often? I think of myself as a fairly intelligent person, why can't I remember this? Why do I need to go insane having expectations of others? Why won't they do it right? I don't really enjoy the insanity of resentment, but somehow, it seems that it is necessary for me to get into it occasionally. I guess I need the reminder of what I used to do all the time. After years and years of dealing with recovering people, it would seem that I would accept that they are just like everyone else. We speak of the "normies," but all that means is they tolerate alcohol differently than we do. Why do I expect us to react differently than they do? My main benefit is I don't have to stay in the craziness that I create. I have learned here that I may get angry, but I don't have to stay there. If I have expectations of you, and you don't live up to them, I don't have to have a resentment over it. If I am insane for today, it is only for today, and I can choose to change my attitude at any time. I think one of the greatest gifts of the program is the gift of choice. I can choose my attitude at any time. You no longer "Do it to me." If I am angry, it is my fault, and not yours. If it is my responsibility then I can change it. You no longer control my feelings. Just for today, I can feel as good as I set my mind to.