I am an alcoholic, my name is Barbie, good to be here, good to be anywhere.

Things may not get better in my life but I get better if I work this program as if my life depends on it. I may not know how the situation I'm in will turn out, but I do know that if I keep persevering in my recovery, it does get better. It is my recovery. I have to pray and keep taking the action to feel good in my own skin. Some days, when I wake up, my skin feels wet. That's an indication that I must take certain actions in my recovery to have that skin feel right on me. I need to pray on my knees, read, and work Steps Three, Seven, and Eleven out loud. I call my sponsor, and get to lots of meetings. For nearly seventeen years, that means three to five face-to-face meetings a week, and as many as I want online. I am responsible for my recovery. Life can be a dance when I do the Steps, but if I stay in the One, Two, cha cha cha, I am really not moving into the Solution. The Solution is in the Steps. They are hard work if I make it a chore. I have made it a chore on several occasions when I wanted things my way. I sincerely want to be happy, joyous, and free. I plan on things getting better if I continue to make them better. It is a choice.

- Barbie