I came to believe that I cannot do this alone.
From childhood, despite the love I experienced,
I had never let people, even those closest to me,
inside my life.
All my life I lived the deepest of lies,
not sharing with anyone my true thoughts and feelings.
I thought I had a direct line to God,
and I built a wall of distrust around myself.
In AA, I faced the pervasive "we" of the Twelve Steps
and gradually realized that I can separate and protect
my sobriety from outside hazards
only inasmuch as I rely on the sober experience
of other AA members and share their journey
through the steps to recovery.
Learning to trust is one of life's most difficult tasks.
W E = Walls Evaporate.