I'm Jill, an alcoholic.

Today, a few other AA'ers and I will start a new beginners' meeting at our town Alano Club. I have a desire to do this because I remember what it was like when I first walked in, and later when I'd had a slip. I've put my heart into the setting-up of this meeting as a reminder of myself and how I felt. But I also need to remember to follow this program and not become the director, the principal, etc. There is only One who could do that and that One is God. And to the beginner, I always say, "Please try to find a Higher Power now." I have a pretty lazy summer ahead, which means there's time to volunteer at our local AA Central Office. If it weren't for the Central Office on the day I so desperately needed to talk to someone and get help, I wouldn't be here today writing this. There are some circumstances which won't allow me to commit all the time I'd like, since I have children in daycare, but I will discuss this with the women who run Central and arrange a compromise. If it weren't for you all helping me through my stuff, reminding me to get on my knees, have God in my life, and to give back when I was able, I wouldn't have a thing. That is why, when a beginner walks through the door they are the ones who help me most. They are the ones who need understanding and the ones who also need to understand. That is how I work my program today. I have been online for six years, and it has helped me so much. When I felt I might drink at two in the morning, I came online instead and sure enough, there was someone here to listen. I have made many friends here in this room, even though I've never met most of you face-to-face. But I feel as if I'd just had you all over for coffee. I chair online when someone asks, although I can't commit to a time slot since it's hard to do when I have little ones running around. If it weren't for all of you, I wouldn't even have the little ones. Gosh! I wouldn't even have this computer. I get on my knees each morning to ask God to help me. I pray to "practice these principles in all my affairs." At night I get on my knees and pray on my inventory. I also need to promptly admit my mistakes all the time. Thanks all! - JillI'm Jill, an alcoholic. Today, a few other AA'ers and I will start a new beginners' meeting at our town Alano Club. I have a desire to do this because I remember what it was like when I first walked in, and later when I'd had a slip. I've put my heart into the setting-up of this meeting as a reminder of myself and how I felt. But I also need to remember to follow this program and not become the director, the principal, etc. There is only One who could do that and that One is God. And to the beginner, I always say, "Please try to find a Higher Power now." I have a pretty lazy summer ahead, which means there's time to volunteer at our local AA Central Office. If it weren't for the Central Office on the day I so desperately needed to talk to someone and get help, I wouldn't be here today writing this. There are some circumstances which won't allow me to commit all the time I'd like, since I have children in daycare, but I will discuss this with the women who run Central and arrange a compromise. If it weren't for you all helping me through my stuff, reminding me to get on my knees, have God in my life, and to give back when I was able, I wouldn't have a thing. That is why, when a beginner walks through the door they are the ones who help me most. They are the ones who need understanding and the ones who also need to understand. That is how I work my program today. I have been online for six years, and it has helped me so much. When I felt I might drink at two in the morning, I came online instead and sure enough, there was someone here to listen. I have made many friends here in this room, even though I've never met most of you face-to-face. But I feel as if I'd just had you all over for coffee. I chair online when someone asks, although I can't commit to a time slot since it's hard to do when I have little ones running around. If it weren't for all of you, I wouldn't even have the little ones. Gosh! I wouldn't even have this computer. I get on my knees each morning to ask God to help me. I pray to "practice these principles in all my affairs." At night I get on my knees and pray on my inventory. I also need to promptly admit my mistakes all the time. Thanks all!
- Jill