My name is John, and I'm an alcoholic.

My God is the epitome of perfection in every area we can imagine. As an alcoholic, I try to be a perfectionist because I want to be God, I guess. I have perfect ideas, perfect plans, perfect morals ... but darn! My humanity gets in the way, and I am not so perfect after all. I am just a dumb erring person doing what I can to stay sober. I do believe God is accessible and I don't think he needs a broker. So I go directly to God as I understand God for the answer to my human failures. I don't go to another human for answers because he has only answers for himself. I chair an Intergroup speakers meeting, and I enjoy it because every week I hear somebody else's experience, strength, and hope. It is a lot different from the direction that so many alcoholics just as sick as me are so willing to try to make me follow. I just believe God would not give recovery to one person. If I ever drink again I will be turning my back on God because the moment I asked Him for sobriety He gave it to me and I just had to grow into it. Probably no human power could relieve my alcoholism smacks in the face of what I hear so much today. I have no power so how can I teach? How can I treat others? How can I fix them? No way I can! The very most I can do is share my experience, strength, and hope with you. Thanks!
- John