I'm Laura, an alcoholic.

The other day, I was contemplating whether or not I would go to a meeting that night. I just moved to "cow country" less than a year ago and the meetings here are scarce. I used to live in a bigger city where there were many meetings to choose from, and so I took them for granted, although my attendance had been few and far between. My father recently passed away and I thought for sure that would take me out. I thought, if anything, that would cause me to drink, but it didn't. It didn't because I had somewhat of a foundation. I've learned that I cannot take it for granted. I don't get it by osmosis. I get it by showing up and I keep it by giving it away. Today I am involved in my recovery and I just don't "go to meetings." I participate because I want what you have and because I don't ever want to drink again. I'm coming up on 5 years this May and I have to admit that I am in a much better place in my sobriety than I was over 4 years ago. So, as I said earlier, I contemplated whether or not to go to a meeting that night, and decided that complacency was not a good place for me to be. So I went. Thanks for letting me share.
Much AA love - Laura